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RAINY DAYS & MONDAYS
Posted On: 01/04/2010 15:08:28

MANY OF YOU MAY REMEMBER THAT SONG BY THE CARPENTERS' AS BEING A DEPRESSING SONG...WELL, HAVING COME TO THE UNDERSTANDING (after,like 60 years on this plane) THAT LIFE IS REALLY ALL ABOUT CHOICES, I HAVE CHOSEN TO CELEBRATE RAINY DAYS & MONDAYS, RATHER THAN, AS THE SONG SAYS, LET THEM "ALWAYS BRING ME DOWN"...OF COURSE, BEING RETIRED (retarted; as my friends joke) I HAVE THE TIME LUXURY THAT MOST FOLKS DON'T, BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT...THE POINT IS I'VE CHANGED MY CHOICE ON HOW TO VIEW THOSE DAYS, REMEMBER LIFE IS ABOUT CHOICES...AND WHETHER YOU BELIEVE IT OR NOT, YOUR MIND MAKES THE CHOICES WITH OR WITHOUT YOU...

HERE'S A CHALLENGE TO PROVE MY POINT ABOUT CHOICES; THE NEXT TIME YOU FEEL YOUR NEGATIVE SELF TAKING OVER..LET ME REPHRASE THAT, THE NEXT TIME YOU ARE AWARE THAT THE TAKE-OVER IS EITHER COMING ON OR YOU RECOGNIZE THAT IT'S IN EFFECT, CONSCIOUSLY STOP AND ACKNOWLEDGE THAT YOU ARE IN THE NEGATIVE STATE...DON'T TRY TO DO ANYTHING TO CHANGE IT AT FIRST, JUST WATCH AND SEE IF YOU CAN BE AWARE OF IT..IF YOU TRY, OFTEN ENOUGH, SOONER OR LATER YOU'LL CATCH A GLIMPSE OF THE DEMON...YOU'LL NOTICE THE PHYSICAL DIFFERENCE FROM WHEN YOU'RE FEELING "NORMAL". THAT AWARENESS WILL BE STEP ONE ON THE PATH OF RECOGNIZING THE UNCONSCIOUSNESS OF YOUR MIND, (THATS ON AUTO-PILOT) AND THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF THAT SAME MIND (WHICH REQUIRES EFFORT TO TURN OFF THE AUTO-PILOT).

THIS ISN'T EASY, AND MANY TIMES I FIND MY FIRST REPONSE TO, SAY, MONDAY, IS "OH SHIT, IT'S MONDAY" BUT I CHECK MYSELF AND CONSCIOUSLY REPEAT THAT MONDAYS NOW REPRESENT A CHOICE TO ME AND I CHOSE WHAT AND HOW I WILL ENJOY THE DAY. SOMETIMES, I'LL DECIDE NOT TO DO ANYTHING ON MONDAYS, KNOWING HOW EVERYBODY IS RUNNING AROUND TRYING TO CATCH-UP FROM THE WEEKEND, MOST MONDAYS I WON'T EVEN GO OUT..ENJOYING THE DAY READING, WATCHING A MOVIE, LISTENING TO MUSIC ALL DAY, OR LIKE TODAY, SHARING MY THOUGHTS HERE, ON THE NET...ENJOYING MY MONDAY...LOOKING FORWARD TO A RAINY DAY!!!  CHOICES...MAKE SOME....DAVEY THE 'RETIRED' (retarted) BOOMER   P.S. WHY DOESN'T THIS THING HAVE SPELL-CHECK FOR THE HIGH-FUNCTIONING IDIOTS LIKE ME? 



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From: bevvy
01/21/2010 20:40:53

Davey, this is really good, useable stuff.  Thanks! Will write in large font~~b



From: Skya
01/20/2010 12:51:52

I'M DIABETIC, TOO, DAVEY. SO FAR, IT'S NOT AFFECTING MY EYES, BUT I'LL TYPE IN ALL CAPS SO YOU CAN SEE IT BETTER.


I WAS JUST TEASING ABOUT THE SPELLING MISTAKE


I'M GOING TO CHECK MY LIBRARY AND SEE IF THEY HAVE, OR CAN GET, THAT BOOK FOR ME.


I AM AWARE OF THE "CRASHES" COMING ON - I FEEL IT IN THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART, A SORT OF AN ACHE, THAT EXPLODES AND SPREADS TO ALL PARTS OF MY BODY, TOE TO HEAD (YES IN THAT DIRECTION). AND I FIGHT IT WITH ALL I HAVE, BUT MOST TIMES, I LOSE.


WHAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HANDLE IS MY NEWLY-DIAGNOSED BI-POLAR DISEASE. FOR ABOUT TWO MONTHS, I'VE COME FACE TO FACE WITH MANIA. SO FAR, IT'S A SILLY THING - DRIVING TOO FAST AND THINKING IT'S FUN, OR NOT BEING ABLE TO SIT STILL AND CONCENTRATE ON ONE THING, OR THINKING EVERYTHING IS FUNNY. I'M NOT AT THE POINT WHERE I FEEL I CAN STOP TRAFFIC ON THE FREEWAY, OR CAN BUY A HOUSEHOLD OF FURNITURE WITH A CREDIT CARD. BUT I DO FEEL IT COMING ON, AND I HAVE NO CLUE HOW TO STOP IT. I AM A VERY RAPID CYCLER - MY HIGHS ONLY LAST ABOUT 2 HOURS, AND WHEN THEY STOP, IT'S LIKE FALLING FROM THE TOP OF A SKYSCRAPER, AND ABOUT AT THE SAME SPEED.


SO, ANY FELLOW "BEEPERS" (BPer - GET IT?) WHO CAN GIVE ME ANY SUGGESTIONS ON STOPPING A HIGH, I'D BE GLAD TO LISTEN.


WEIRD, ISN'T IT? TO HAVE DEPRESSION FOR 36 YEARS AND THEN ASK HOW TO STOP FEELING GOOD. VERY WEIRD INDEED.

From: daveyboomer
01/19/2010 10:40:58

SKYA,  PLEASE FORGIVE MY 'CAPS' I AM NOT SHOUTING, I AM GOING BLIND FROM MY DIABETES, CAPS IS THE ONLY WAY I CAN SEE WHAT I'M WRITING. I AM NO EXPERT, OTHER THAN THE FACT THAT I HAVE HAD MY DISORDERS FOR 58 YEARS AND AM A 'SEEKER'. I'M READING  ECKHART TOLLE'S 'A NEW EARTH', WHICH DEALS WITH OUR "DARKNESSES".TIME NOR SPACE ALLOWS ME TO QUOTE THE WHOLE BOOK, BUT I WOULD LIKE TO SHARE SOMETHING WITH YOU, SOMETHING YOU ARE ALREADY AWARE OF (FROM YOUR COMMENT) YOU REFER TO THE "BROKEN PART OF YOUR MIND" TOLLE IDENTIFYS THAT AS MANKINDS 'PAIN-BODY', MORE PRECISELY, THE EGO; "THE GREATER PART OF MOST PEOPLE'S THINKING IS INVOLUNTARY,AUTOMATIC,AND REPETITIVE. THE VOICE IN THE HEAD HAS A LIFE OF IT'S OWN. MOST PEOPLE ARE AT THE MERCY OF THAT VOICE; THEY ARE POSSED BY THOUGHT, BY THE MIND."  HE GOES ON TO SAY THAT THIS POSSESION IS PART OF THE UNCONCIOUSNESS..YOU ALREADY HAVE A GRASP OF THIS BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU RECOGNIZE WHEN IT COMES ON AND YOU ATTEMPT TO "THINK SOMETHING ELSE". SO YOU ARE AWAKENING TO THE FACT THAT SOMETHING MUST BE DONE WHEN THE 'DARKNESS' IS COMING ON...THAT IS PART OF YOUR AWAKENING...OF BECOMING CONSCIOUS...I WOULD SUGGEST YOU FIND A COPY OF THE BOOK I MENTIONED AND EXPLORE FURTHER, YOU ARE AT THE THRESHOLD OF GREATER UNDERSTANDING...(NO I DON'T GET ANYTHING FROM SALES OF THE BOOK, OTHER THAN THE JOY OF SHARING AND GROWING WITH THOSE WHO ARE SEEKERS TOO.) AS FOR MY SPELLING, IN ANOTHER BLOG, I WONDERED WHY THEY DON'T PROVIDE SPELL-CHECK FOR HIGH-FUNCTIONING IDIOTS LIKE ME...KEEP IN TOUCH, DAVEY



From: daveyboomer
01/19/2010 10:00:56


Skya wrote:


I've never really had an "Oh shit it's Monday" feeling. I like coming to work because my mind is on work instead of the darkness. I have gotten better at noticing when I was starting to "crash," but I'm not sure how to stop it. When I'm falling, I'll tell myself to do something else, or think something else, but the broken part of my mind tells me that it's a stupid idea and just give in to the crash.




Any suggestions?




(Psst! Davey.. it's spelled "retarded".)




From: Skya
01/18/2010 15:33:24

I've never really had an "Oh shit it's Monday" feeling. I like coming to work because my mind is on work instead of the darkness. I have gotten better at noticing when I was starting to "crash," but I'm not sure how to stop it. When I'm falling, I'll tell myself to do something else, or think something else, but the broken part of my mind tells me that it's a stupid idea and just give in to the crash.


Any suggestions?


(Psst! Davey.. it's spelled "retarded".)



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