summer2010 wrote:

Yes, a garden is good to have.  Tonight I picked beans.  My hubby cooks them in olive oil with pepper/salt and they taste good being fresh and all.  I finally got my medications today for depression.  I was using 1/2 tablets instead of two tabs and Sunday I had no more left.  Are you on anti-depressants?  Do they seem to make you hungry all the time.  I don't know if it is the pills or not but after I took them I ate a large supper.  Snacked on 4 apricots (fresh) and 1 banana.  I feel stuffed and overweight.

I have panic/anxiety attacks also but I am able to go out to restraurants and stores.  It must be hard on you not to be able to go places without suffering so much.

Talk to you later

Spent most of it at my parents, who live nearby.  Friday went to an auction and bought a small woodend box thing for my deck.  Saturday spent almost all day doing the car thing.  Sunday I continued the slow process of cleaning up my room and my life.  I had be neglecting I lot of stuff, so decided to get them done.  Next step is putting a lot of my books into storage, which I'll start today after dealing with car insurance and tags/registration.  Been about three weeks since I left the hospital and I've been keeping so busy it seens like a few months.  Wish I could have a garden.  If I ever buy a house I want a yard with at least enough room for a garden.  We'll see.

summer2010 wrote:

Abilify was the worst thing I was on - made me suicidal, restless, anxious, etc.  I couldn't stand it.  Surprised me since my psychologist had mentioned about six months earlier how good it was for people.  Glad it works for you, everyone has their own body chemistry and what works for them.

I'm reading (although I've been taking a break for about two months with being in the hospital, etc) 'A Walk in the Woods' - Bill Bryson, finishing 'Detoxification and Healing'- Sydney Baker, 'Thirty Years Among the Dead' - Carl Wickland (though I may call it quits because it is repetative and hard to get through, I have a good feel for what he wanted to convey), and 'UFO's and the National Security State Vol 2' - Richard Dolan.  I tend to read a number of books at once.  Going to finish Bryson and Baker first once I get more time.  Do you like to read; if so what are your reading?

summer2010 wrote:

Thanks for the comment!  I plan to write about once a week, but some topics take a lot of time to research and type out.  I have about eight topics listed right now to write about.  Gives me a goal for my own mental health since I'm unemployable and trying to keep stable long enough to try to pursue a master's degree in something.  Probably psychology LOL!  Lamotrigine worked for me, but I developed the life threatening rash that can happen when you take it.  It's a good drug (atleast it was for me) and I hope to do a blog post that includes it after I do some research.  Any anti-psychotics make feel weird, suicidal, or physical reactions like bad back tightness and shuffling when I walk.  Take care!