I am so happy to see different sites popping up about mental illness.  So thank you Joey and Glenn Close, as well as others.  Finally.  I will share a little of my story. I guess looking back I have been depressed since I was in middle school.  However, I was diagnosed in my 20's.  I kept depression and my medications a secret until my 30's, when I had a full-on panic attack.  My mother was coming that week and I could not hide it any longer.  I was and really still am closeted about my depression.  I told a few friends and lost them. So I keep it hidden from friends and boyfriends.  It's the huge secret.   It is easy to hide depression; put on a happy smile, make jokes.    Always, happy, happy, happy.

I was hospitalized for the first time in November ‘09 because the pain of having it with no support was just too much.  I did not succeed in ending my life and I am still here taking it one day at a time.   I do not know what tomorrow will bring...

 

 

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