Well, my doctor thought it was time to step up my type of medication cause i was losing it again. My case was referred to a high level doctor and he was shown some of my artwork and poems, etc and heard about my past failures in life. Soooooooooo, he came to the conclusion that i needed the big dog meds. I was taking 40MGs of Prozac and it was gonna be supplemented with something else BUT this dude thinks i need the big L. There i said it, Lithium. I stopped the pzac this weekend and started... Read More

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  seriously, after, serveral months of hearing people talk about their problems at a support group meeting i soon realized, if, they didn't have their illness they wouldn't have alife. this misery gives them something to do, something to give them an identity.

  it was almost like they wanted to hang on to what made them the way they were and they didn't want to let go of it or else it would be like who will i have now to associate with. they needed a common ground... Read More

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I'm having a recurrence of bipolar depression.

I'm not having the flu. I'm not having mono. I'm not having to visit distant family members. I'm not doing any of the things I might have told people I was doing. I'm suffering from mental illness. It's a real and painful disease, and I get it treated the best I can. I see doctors. I take medicine. I am sick.

I decided that with this relapse, this instance, I am going to be honest. I'm going to put it in the open, and though I might... Read More

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I can't think of anything more painful or more heart wrenching than that of the day to day life of a parent of a child with a serious mental illness. This is not to diminish the pain of parents of children with medical illnesses or of parents who have lost a child, but it is different. The isolation is palpable. The acceptance and sympathy is not universal. There is still, in this day and age, shame and the perception of failure. Yes, there are wonderful support groups and caring and knowledg... Read More

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