Small and selfish, able to demonize those less fortunate, they are broken-hearted, and some will never heal...if they are to, we must forgive them, and lead the way...

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Hello,

My name is Joel M.  I have Bipolar I.  I was diagnosed and hospitalized in 1995 with mania.  About 2 years ago I had an episode of hypomania.  I have not had any other problems medically---my doctor says that I am on the fringe.  Despite my limited medical problems, I have had many issues with stigma---most recently leading to my job loss two years ago.  It is amazing how many inteligent, highly educated people can be so ignorant.  This summer... Read More

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WASTED - 11/02/09

another part of me just died
the journey is over
lost contact with the base
plunging toward the earth
thinking about my life span as i descend down
thinking about my inception to this final minute

it was a hell of a ride
but so very very sad
to think that i thought i was actually living freely
but it wasn't even close

fought tornado's caused by other sick family members
battled high winds caused by insane emotions
hi... Read More

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VETERAN - 11/16/09

its been a long dark journey
my mind has traveled the world
battling scary monsters throughout
feeling like a broken down old man

i play russian roulette
every goddam day
my gun has one in the chamber
so the game does not play to my advantage

a calm voices sings to me
sings the names of Bob, Dad, Chris
calling me to feel sad for them
to feel deep deep deep sadness

i give in, i like this place
its more co... Read More

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The holidays and depression. It always comes. I wish I had a remote that could fast forward from the Wednesday before Thanksgiving to Jan 3rd. I go all the way to Jan 3rd to avoid the inevitable "what did you do for new year's?" question and the look that I get when I say "nothing". The same goes for Thanksgiving and Christmas. "What did you do for Thanksgiving?" -- "Nothing". "What did you do for Christmas?" -- "Nothing". You should see the look I get. It's somewhere between pity a... Read More

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