That is us as in all of us, not U S as in United States. I'm talking about us. The us that is labelled (and unlabelled- in hiding- diagnosed or not...) sufferers of mental illness.  What can we do as an us?

I think that may be part of what Joey hopes to achieve with this site...if I read it right. (And by the way...give him a hand for being so brave as to step out on life's stage like this, to give us a resource, a voice, an outlet...Kudos...Good Karma...and all our hopes and drea... Read More

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 I wrote this one night, 3 years ago, in attempts to fight my self-loathing and self-pity. I still have these feelings on occassion. Since I have quit drinking, I have had them less often but more intense.

 That fucking feeling.
>   Similar to the night I wrote Shrinivas, but less sad, lonely, pathetic,
> and twitchy, and more, self loathing: alcoholic, loser, low self-esteem,
> flakey, neurotic. It is automatic, in concordance with my p... Read More

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Don’t try to bury the past. It happened. Shit happens. So turn the shit into sugar by realizing that the black coal of your past has produced the diamond that you are today.

David Grant.

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Two of my friends are going back east for high school reunions. I found both of them on Facebook, and they both had moved to the west coast. They are also both a year older than I am. They are very excited and mention the reunion with great zest.

I, on the other hand, have been hiding from any reunion commitee. I would probably send a nasty RSVP. I hated high school.

In high school, I was an outsider. I had friends but found that they were not really my friends. After the "incid... Read More

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I wrote this in June 2009, 6 months into my recovery from depression.

INVISIBLE

my eyes face a new vision
as i wake each day
my mind faces a new battle
but in a new way

the battle used to be good vs. evil within me
and the two sides were be at odds frequently
but the new battle is to see life differently
i only live for good now and its clear
the evil is dead & in remission but there's always fear

the fear that i will not be strong... Read More

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