I'm glad it's October, for no other reason than September was NOT a good month. Too much coming at me.  My anxiety was through the roof.

But I have to say, if I can get out ... well it's critical to my well being.

Just brief, as I'm tired... but I was supposed to meet an old college friend at a tea ... don't laugh for my old dorm.  "Ladies tea."  I did NOT want to go, and was almost going to cancel, but I don't see this friend often, and her husband is seriously ill, with cancer, and he is only 50 -- my age.

I said, OK, I'm going to BE MYSELF, feel lousy, tell her if I do, or just listen to whatever she has to say.  Just GO.

Before we met, I wandered over to the law quad next door and lo and behold in this beautiful quad there was Tom Brokaw being interviewed for something.  Haven't figured out what yet, as there were four young law students SMOKING A BONG -- all seated on lawn chairs -- and in the way of an irritated camera crew and security guard, but they said, "Hey, we were here first."

I actually struck up a conversation with them.  No one would know I was feeling like Hell ... yeah, "I look perfectly normal."  But talking with these guys was a hoot.

I then went over to meet my friend.

Most important, by being myself, I helped her open up about her husband.  I just flat out asked her about his surgery, his radiation therapy, his chemo.  He is such a sweet guy, and she is such a sweet person this just breaks my heart.

She comes off as being very strong ... and she is.  But it felt good when she said, "I've never said some of this stuff to anyone before."  I was glad she shared this with me.  Her pain.

And after we parted company ... she had to pick up her son .. and I had to find my car ... really still feeling out of it ... I couldn't help crying, in front of her.  And I just held her hand.

I am so glad I dragged myself out to see her.

I still felt like Hell that day.  But I could write that down as an accomplishment.  The next day, I woke up with a tad more energy to face the day.

Yup, being with people is so critical.  Or I ROT.

Tags: Motivation Socializing

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