I wrote this in July 2009, 7 months into my recovery from depression.

 
DEMON
depression is a multi faceted demon
that shows no remorse for its victims
it hurts the ones that love you
it doesn't stop until you are dead
your lifeless body dead from sorrow
with no explanations to those left behind
left behind feeling helpless
always asking the question, why
you did your best to hide it from everyone
your insides slowly turned black
death was a welcome solution to your misery

depression is another word for hate
depression is another word for black
depression is another word for hurt
depression is another word for seclusion
depression is another word for fear
depression is another word for liar
depression is another word for drugs

depression is so powerful
love cannot win against it
a loved ones tears cannot win against it
cause it makes you a cold heartless human
who does not seek the warmth of love
it seeks mental isolation
making you withdraw from existence

recovery is not an easy task
cause its persistent in coming back
at the first sign of personal turmoil
it welcomes the thoughts of sadness
when you least expect it
and it begs you to come back to its dark home
like a parent embracing a young child after a long absence
runaway as fast as you can and avoid its presence
RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!!!

life spent away from it
makes you realize that you can live without it
you don't love it anymore
it can find a different victim
its not welcome in your happiness filled house

there is life after depression
and this i know and i appreciate it
you will need strong, loving, caring people around you
that will understand your struggle
dont be afraid to reach out to them
when the demon comes callin

i am only a few months into recovery
and i don't know what the future holds
but i have a better understanding
of the demon known as depression
slowly learning what a happy life is
i am surviving and taking it one day at a time

Tags: Poem Depression Poetry

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