it all started in my forties, these wonderful great feelings. but, first, imagine a mind like leo in whats eating gilbert grape and the boy who could fly. my mind was more like the boy who could fly , yet i wanted to explore everything like leo.

 as i sit with the group and talked to help inspire those living with depression. i thought sharing my life with them would do it and it did for they soon realized their life wasn't that bad as they made it out to be for it could have been much worse.

 a couple of months later, i had finally reached far enough into my life nearing forty that an elderly man said, "you had an emotional awakening and i  paused for a moment and said, yes, i believe you are right.

 however, i said, i wasn't ready for what was to come and it moved me into a deep depression for the feelings had taken me back to what i had missed in life, my childhood, my first eighteen years with my wife, and my three children in their baby years all lost.

  how could a mind be so lost to something so needed, so important , something which is needed to let us know we are alive?? why? i reached oput to dr. phil, i reached out to oprah, i reached out to everybody for i had no clue to what was going on in my head or who could help me and even to the point of what is a psychologist?

  then something happened i realized, if, i stay in this mode, before i know it i will be an old person with nothing, but, sad memories. it was at that point i knew i had to do something for there was nobody else to help me. so, i by acident started walking to check things out. i would walk again the next day and the next and the next.

  now in my late forties when i get a new feeling and relate to the past i let myself cry over it for a little while, to make what i am about to do very powerful and moving. slowly, i start to move that feeling to something in my life now and it can be anything. then i think to myself life is good and i will then smile about it and be thinkful i have a feeling to go with something.

 REMEMBER, you have the power and the ability to make good chemicals and stop making bad chemicals in your brain, it is a matter of what you do in your life with the activities that take place in your mind. work with your mind talk, you can do it. just learn how to mindtalk in a positive way.

   I WELCOME HAPPY AND SAD FEELINGS FOR THEY LET ME  KNOW I AM ALIVE             &nb sp;                      

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