well today i thought was going to be a good day. guess thats the problem with thinking. I have learned not to say what else could go wrong... God will show ya... Just seems as if what can stress me today.. has. so many things to worry about and with my issues... the worry turns into complete meltdown.

i wanted to have a  good day... instead i am just hoping to pull thru it.

anyways... hope all has a good day and god bless

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Well where to begin. I guess at the beginning. I have strugglede with many things in my life. I can honestly say never drugs or alcohol, but sometimes i think they would be easier to deal with. i have been diagnosed with clinical depression, PTSD, manic depressant, bipolar and ocd.  I used to think i was just sad and lonely. i also thought maybe it was from the nasty marriage i had and the lovely sexual abuse from my brother when i was younger. Then i realized somewhere out of the blue t... Read More

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Early in my career I got fired from not one but two jobs within the space of 18 months after my employer became aware of my illness.  The first was the day I returned to work after being placed on  two weeks medical leave and in outpatient therapy after my brother's death six weeks before and mother's suicide attempt the week before.  It was too small to be covered by the ADA so there wasn't anything I could do.

The next time, I had inquired about FMLA leave fr... Read More

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This blog is for those who hold a sadness in their heart or feel like something's missing inside. There is no sustaining pharmaceutical remedy for this kind of inner despair. The solution can only come from within....

Some people live their lives stuck in an exhausting treadmill. Too tired to change course they tolerate seeing the same sights, having the same experiences over and over again. I know a few people who lost or quit a job every couple of years with the excuse... Read More

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This post is dedicated to magnificence that is the heart and soul of the creative spirit.

"Re-examine all you have been told. Dismiss what insults your Soul." - Walt Whitman 
For many artists, challenges are very personal.  And one of the biggest challenges is the Critic in the room, the Inner Critic.
This well meaning yet woefully misguided Inner Critic is the voice of your self-doubt and fear. Its the emotional ties that bind you, hold you back, keep you stuck, limit... Read More

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