I get clean and sober on September 25th, 1988 and began dealing with my severe depression and anxiety.  I was diagnosed and treated intensely for severe PTSD from childhood sexual abuse.   After five incredible years of Mental Health and Twelve Step recovery, I left the oil and gas industry and began studying for a degree in psychology followed by a Masters degree in Marriage and Family Therapy.

Since 1997 I have been a Family Therapist primarily serving as a Clinical Team... Read More

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Today I had a session with my therapist. I have chronic depression(along with a few other things) and I've been going to her a long time. She helps alot and I look forward to seeing her. Today I was weirdly fragmented in thought. It's happened before. It's just a strange place. I loose my train of thought... Can't complete a sentence. Just can't come up with the word for whatever it was I was thinking which either zoomed in and out of my head so fast I can't remember what I was thin... Read More

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As many of you know I have spent a life battling Mental Illness in the form of BiPolar Disorder a mood disorder characterized by extreme highs and extreme depression. After years of struggling and taking so many pills and combinations of pills to treat it seemed that I could not find a good balance between health and having any personality that was non-medicated I reached a turning point.
  Over a year ago I once again slipped into the black shroud of major depression, a depressi... Read More

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  how could i have reached 40 and not have the main things required, to be a human? to be a husband? to be a parent? to be alive and not have feelings to attach me to things and people, especially, my family  and later, my wife and kids?

  when my mind finally broke through and being in my early 40s i wasn't prepared for what was about to take place. then, as i looked backed on my life i stood in horror not wanting to believe what i was growing up.

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